Ok...want some honesty?
I like it, so I am going to be a bit honest right now if I may.
I hate studying, my roommates can attest to that. I do it as voluntarily as a child goes to bed in summer, metaphorically kicking and screaming, or as joyously as a hostage, forced to do it for the sole purpose of prolonging my life, and in obligation to be a good student, daughter, and servant of God. There might as well be an invisible gun held to my head, (although since I am being honest, I believe I may be more compelled to take the bullet than hit the books.). Fortunately, although I may not be compelled to do so, I do it...resentful the whole way through.
Some may find this ironic. I am compelled to learn, seek and discover. I hunger after wisdom, and information. Thus, why is it I dread studying?! This has been a point of inflection for me throughout my college experience. It is not because the material is boring...I am learning about the human body, and how God created it.....and OMG is it unique and beautiful. I love what I am studying, I just hate actually doing it. Why, I do not know...
Anyway. Some of you may not have known that about me. And some of you may not understand my deep hatred of the library, flashcards, and highlighters....perhaps because you love them, I don't know. But I do know I have perfected the art of procrastination, and I am sure that by the time I walk across that stage to recieve my diploma, it will have become a finely tuned precision. It is like wine, and only gets better with age. So now you know that about me.
Ultimately, the essence of this blog is a desperate attempt to not fall asleep, as I have been studying since 10 am this morning, (it is now 5:30am), and I have a test in oh, 2.5 hours. Therefore, any of you out there who have ever pulled an all nighter know that it is only out of morbid stupidity that one would choose to fall asleep when they only had a mere hour to sleep, as the body would only wake up more tired, and if I know my body, which I do, it would not wake up at all, thus totally backfiring on the purpose of studying all day today. Thank God tomorrow is friday and I can sleep until sunday.....
On a brighter note, today I learned about genetic recombination, inheritance patterns, codominance and incomplete penetrance, the significance of the Drosophila melonagaster, mendelian principles of dominance, independent assortment, and segregation, and oh so much more. Ahh, my future hopes....pass the test, and then stay awake until 6pm tonight, when I will shut the books and say good bye to academia for a full 12 hours (remember we are being honest, and I have a 12 page paper due on monday, so the break is quite temporary).
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