Saturday, August 01, 2009

bring it on... gently...

So, for whatever reason, the next phase of my life is going to read:

Stressed out 101

It started pre-move in early may, with the combo of packing, the boy beginning Nursing school, and the oh so not wonderful Doctors visit.

I thought it was going to end post beach trip, and when it didn't, I thought it would end post move. And then post surgery, then maybe post the boy's summer class, and then post VBS. Finally, I decided post Las Vegas trip, there would be nothing else to stress out about, and I could finally catch my breath. Stop treading water and rest on the side of the pool for a while.

But, that isn't going to happen. The quick 5k of life I thought I was running has all too easily become a New York Marathon of life... with all of the added dangers of the city.... (if you are not picking up on my metaphor, I apologize). And the worst part... I forgot my sneakers. lol.

I decided Mid-July that I was going to make this fall be the year I got back in school. Deadline to do so was August 1st.... (have we ever mentioned I am a professional procrastinator?? If you think you are good, I promise I have got you beat). I filed the FAFSA, got approved for a Grant that would pay for my year in school. One that went through, I decided to apply to GTCC, so I could work toward getting my ADN (associates degree in nursing).

footnote:
With an ADN I can get hired on as an RN, while working as an RN I can do a bridging program to get my BSN (Bachelors of Science in Nursing), become a higher level of RN, take the MCAT and hopefully get in to Medical School, to finally reach my goal of becoming an MD. I think I would like to be an EDP, A trauma surgeon, or a Pediatric EDP/Trauma Surgeon.

By some miracle, (and a lot of frustration), they accepted me. The financial aid cleared, and I registered as a full time student for fall of 2009. I am so excited to be back in school, though I am not yet in the nursing program, and I have no classes this fall I am really going to enjoy.

All of this is happening while working a full time, 40 hour a week, graveyard shift job in the Emergency Department. Where we are busy. And understaffed, especially in my department. In Spring I applied to transfer to days, and was approved, but have to stay on nights until they have trained my replacement. Last week I found out that I will be moving (finally!) to day shift on the 25th of August. I am excited and daunted by this...

it means I will be working 7a-3:30p, get home around 4p, leave for school @ 5:45p, be in class from 6-9:30p, and need to be in bed by around 11p. whew... it makes me tired thinking about it.

Aside from that, I work Monday- Friday 7-3:30, and have class Monday-Thursday from 6-9:30p. Devon Has class Tuesday-Friday until somewhere between 2:30 and 4, and then will be working Friday, Saturday, and Sunday nights from 7p-7a... so there is basically no time for me to see him. That is going to be tough.

So, can I do it??? Can I get good grades and work a full time job, while keeping a healthy relationship with my baby??? Only with Gods help.

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