My Mid-mid life crisis

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Wow this summer has flown past. I remember as a child how quickly the summer went, but now it is different. Before I was eager with anticipation to find out who was in my class or to begin the rights and rituals that accompany becoming older. In third grade, multiplication, fourth, we got to play on the big kid playground, in fifth the field trips, sixth doing crosswalk patrol...and so on. But now I sit, apprehensive of what the next year could bring. I am almost done with school, three years, and I will have achieved becoming a college graduate! Going for a doctorate..... AHHH!
I just don't see myself being as old as I am...in a few months the title of teenager will have passed me by! And yet, my favorite activities include, dress up, playing at the park, going for walks, watching disney movies, coloring, dancing to silly music, eating otter pops on the front steps in the middle of the summer.
It is just awkward to be home again, so much an adult and yet so young at heart. And that is my rant...I dont want to grow up...but I do, I am having a mid mid life crisis! What do those of us in this position do? We aren't yet old enough to go out and start dating a guy twenty years younger, they haven't even been born, don't have the money to go get a sports car, aren't married, so divorce is out, we have no options but to suck it up and keep on going, hopefully it won't build up until we ARE fourty ( that is only twenty years away!!!ahhh!) and cause our mid life crises to become 100 fold!!
In short, this is me dreading my organic chemisty, microbiology, calculus, and physics classes! I am insane!