heavens...

so i decided, that i am weird. like, a total nutcase. haha. those of you who put up with me, deserve some sort of reward. =).

i want to go overseas. africa is calling me...god is calling me. i spent like 8 hours the other night researching missions organizations, length of stays, locations, requirements. I found one that will take people for a year. Jan. 7, 07- Dec. 31, 07. it took everything within me not to apply. i just want to go.

and i ran into one of my past "awkward" people. it was weird to see him. i hoped not to run into him. he is a good guy. there is just a long story.

and my distrustful side has come out again...oh joy. =).

i am homesick. extremely homesick.

i want to act on my dreams. but i don't know where to start. i don't know who to talk to. i want to see things happen, not just talk about making things happen. i'm so tired of "we'll set up meetings, i'll call you next week, once this is over, etc." i wonder how many meetings jesus had before he chose to do something, to heal a leper or save a life.

and i miss my friends.
alicia. wendy. becca. josh. kyle. chris. phil. khall. art. sammy.